Sick. Sick. Sick.

So tired of The Obligatory Back to School Sick.

Today I Am Grateful

For car mechanics I can trust.

Today I Am Grateful

I am grateful for my most recent audition experience. The role, for me, was a real gem. I thought I nailed the audition. The script was fun and for a good cause. The people were awesome to work with.

Of course, on the way home, I thought of a million ways I could have done things better.

And I didn't get the part.

You typically find out you don't get the part when no one contacts you within the time-frame they quote. Sometimes they don't even quote you a "hear back by" time frame and if it's the shoot date and you haven't heard, well, you didn't get it. The reasons for not getting a part are always mysterious. It could be that you were AWESOME but the other people cast playing the other parts (like your on screen children) don't look enough like you so they had to go with someone else. Sometimes you just don't look like what the director had in mind. Mostly, you never know.

This time, I got an e-mail from the producer letting me know that I wasn't cast. (Hurray for considerate producers!) I took a chance and asked for any audition feedback they had to offer. I expected vague generalities and non-answers, if I received a reply at all.

He said I wasn't as comfortable with the process as the person they cast (who also took direction better than I).

Fair enough. The only way to gain comfort is to keep experiencing the process. And yes, some of the million ways I could have done things better was to internalize more quickly the direction I was given. And the best way to get better at that? More practice.

In the short term, it looks like I've got my work cut out for me, if I'm going to keep at this.

On the plus side, he said they'd keep my resume on file.

Thank you universe, for hooking me up with someone who is both curtious and was willing to offer constructive feedback.

Dear Universe

Dear Universe,

I am very grateful for my upcoming audition opportunity. I am, however, very confused by the concurrent sore throat, runny nose and accompanying headache.

What exactly are you trying to tell me?

Yours,
Miche

Today I Am Grateful

For a credit card company that was happy to reverse *MY* mistake *AND* refund me the service charge incurred by said mistake.

My Stomach Is In Knots

Someone, from an acting class I took, has spent the last few days hunting me down. They have a part in a short film, for which they believe I will be perfect. (It's non-speaking and only on screen for less than a minute.)

I like the script and they are shooting during a time when child care will be easy-ish to arrange. (Is it ever really easy to arrange child care?)

After being offered the role, without an audition ('cause that's how small the role is -- or maybe that's how good an impression I made during class?), I was upfront declaring my union status even though it was not requested of me.

I think I've fallen on the wrong side of the line.

I'm no worse off if I don't get the role, but for some reason, now I really, really want it.

*sigh*

At the very least, I hope they get back to me soon!

Three Consecutive Hours

It's been over 6 years since I've had more than 3 consecutive hours, child-free, in my own home. Much of that time, I've spent longing for some quiet "me" time.

Funny then, now that wM is in a full day fun camp, that I miss her so and will be going early to pick-up, so I can spy on her having fun.