It Makes Sense

But some days it's awfully hard.

He is a man of sense who does not grieve for what he has not, but rejoices
in what he has.
- Epictetus

Dear Universe

Dear Universe,

While I'm pleased as punch when you offer me audition opportunities and short-term paid work contracts, I'm confused by your concomitant generosity with The Sick and especially The Laryngitis. Why do you offer me paid work that involves many consecutive hours of talking when you're going to take my voice away at the same time?

I'm not complaining. I understand that we all must get sick at some point.

I'm just wondering if there's a message in here that I'm just not hearing clearly.

Yours,
Miche

Frustrated

It never ceases to amaze me, the number of novel approaches I can find to failing my daughter, on a regular basis.

I Don't Understand

Why is it, now that wM is in school all day, it feels like I'm getting less done than when she was only in for half?

Sick. Sick. Sick.

So tired of The Obligatory Back to School Sick.

Today I Am Grateful

For car mechanics I can trust.

Today I Am Grateful

I am grateful for my most recent audition experience. The role, for me, was a real gem. I thought I nailed the audition. The script was fun and for a good cause. The people were awesome to work with.

Of course, on the way home, I thought of a million ways I could have done things better.

And I didn't get the part.

You typically find out you don't get the part when no one contacts you within the time-frame they quote. Sometimes they don't even quote you a "hear back by" time frame and if it's the shoot date and you haven't heard, well, you didn't get it. The reasons for not getting a part are always mysterious. It could be that you were AWESOME but the other people cast playing the other parts (like your on screen children) don't look enough like you so they had to go with someone else. Sometimes you just don't look like what the director had in mind. Mostly, you never know.

This time, I got an e-mail from the producer letting me know that I wasn't cast. (Hurray for considerate producers!) I took a chance and asked for any audition feedback they had to offer. I expected vague generalities and non-answers, if I received a reply at all.

He said I wasn't as comfortable with the process as the person they cast (who also took direction better than I).

Fair enough. The only way to gain comfort is to keep experiencing the process. And yes, some of the million ways I could have done things better was to internalize more quickly the direction I was given. And the best way to get better at that? More practice.

In the short term, it looks like I've got my work cut out for me, if I'm going to keep at this.

On the plus side, he said they'd keep my resume on file.

Thank you universe, for hooking me up with someone who is both curtious and was willing to offer constructive feedback.