No Deal

They were willing to make some change to the major icky things, but didn't want to have to incur lawyer's fees to do so. (I was willing to take on 50% of the fee.) They said they had over 100 other people sign without issue.

I wonder whether or not I made mountains out of molehills. My lawyer, Mr. Miche and I all feel safer with me not signing. I don't think they were paying me enough anyway. I didn't stand to make a ton of cash from them overall, either.

Still ... icky.

Icky

Why does standing up for myself always feel icky?

I'm supposed to do some short-term occasional contract work starting this weekend. The company has recently changed names and all the paper needs to be signed again. They've added a new document which raised some flags. I contacted a lawyer to review the doc. Lawyer said not to sign any of the docs as is and one needs a major overhaul.

Now I'm waiting to hear of the company even wants to consider these changes. And I'm going to ask if they'll split some of the legal fees or have me work without a contract. Or even if they still want me to come in on the weekend.

All I feel now is icky.

Things That Make Me Anxious

In no particular order:

• bed bugs (in places like transit, libraries, schools, restaurants, movie theatres)


• the invasion of clutter that seems to be winning


• thinking of parting with wM's baby things


• making joint decisions involving large sums of monies to do things I'm not sure I want to do (I'm not sure I don't, I'm just not sure I do)


• inability to keep up correspondence with friends


• my inability to generate meaningful income (secondary to lack of marketing skills)


• thinking about the future a smart (but less than motivated) 20 yo I know that hasn't finished high-school, had a job or done any volunteer work


• aging family members


• parenting

That feels better. Now if I can just keep them out of my brain and leave them in this post.

Dear Universe, WTF?

Dear Universe,

I'm on to you. I see the pattern now. I start to let go of my anxieties around financial stability and then Mr. M losses his job. I start to feel happy about my place in life and a family member has a sudden onset health issue. I put down the mental burden of X with the faith that everything is going to be alright and you slap me across the the head with a brick.

Yes, I realize after the fact that the bricks didn't leave any permanent scarring damange. But they leave a helluva sting in the short term. You're toying with some serious operant conditioning patterns that are reinforcing my already-too-tight grip on anxieties.

Maybe we could chat about this over coffee one day instead.

Anxiously yours,
Me

PSA

Dear Gentlemen:

When your hosting-averse significant other tells you point blank that she is exhausted and on the verge of completely losing it, it is not recommended to invite company over for a visit.

I'm just saying.

Yours,
Me

Good News Alert!

It's official! There are NO new food allergies to report at the Miche household!

WOOT!

Now I can exhale.

Unfair

Recently, a very caring and capable person in my community, was forced out of their job because they felt physically threatened by someone else in the community.

Our community is losing all of the positives and benefits of this person, because of one bad apple.

And there is nothing that anyone can do about it.

How can that be fair?